I can hardly see through my tears. You are dying and a part of me will go with you.  You are the man who took me in and let me live with you.  You are the man who taught me to ballroom dance; who lent me the money for my first pair of contact lenses; who paid for all the wine at my wedding.  

I have to come and see you tomorrow and I have to say my last goodbye.   I hope I can still get chance to say goodbye and you don’t drift off in your sleep tonight.  But that is a selfish view, my selfish view.  You hurt so much that I hope you do just drift away and I will have to live with having loved you and the pain I feel right now.

Travel swifly my darling and travel well.

Smile
Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds
In the sky,
You’ll get by
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile
And maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun
Come shining through
For you

Last night I reached my weight target of 10st 10lbs. Yay!  That means, in order to have life time free membership of Slimming World, I have to remain within 3lbs either way of that weight.  If, which I think may happen, I lose more because of doing more exercise, then my target will be reassigned.

But it does feel good.  13st 4lbs to 10st 10lbs!  And I can’t even celebrate with a drink! LOL!

I have the headache from Hell.  I went to bed with it and I have woken up with it.

I am beginning to like chocolate Horlicks.

Roll on Saturday - Party Time! Yay!